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hello everyone, muah.. haha
hmmmm, yeah. feel so calm and matured now, yup, things have certainly changed alot the past few years.
pple actually get the impression tt i'm wild, not true yup, for pple who really know me, yeah, there's the gp of pple who see me in the club and start gossipping yup, i'm so not a wildchild, yeah, i guess the lil clothes i wear in clubs doesn't really give the whole pic of who i really am,not out to get anything as well, yup, i just dress lil cos i like it. in fact, i'm alr soso sick of clubbing, havent been in the clubbing scene since like pauk van dyk, and tt's about two mths ago, donot play arnd with guys too, nv did,only had three bfs,no flings, dun believe in flings, shld i? maybe i'm missing out. ok, bfs were one after another in less than a yr, i only started dating when i was 18, nv had the thing for guys i guess. and now too, everything just doesn't seem intriguing, morelike whatever. i've only madeout with a stranger once, yeah, in a club,a long time ago, like 2 yrs?i probly cldn't think for myself, give me a break. tt's it, no hanky panky in clubs for me, although tt doesn't seem like, yeah, even my babies, cheryl and grace didn't believe me, but it's the truth. but i dun allow guys to slime me in clubs,maybe just tt one, wasn't in the right mind, and mayeb cos out of spite? revenge? sadness? i dance with my babies, my girls, maybe tt's y i moved on to hse, whereby a girl can even dance by her lonesome self, fav spot, on the speakers at zouk, there's this vibrating feel to it, and only girls can get up there! the rest can just surround me down the stairs or on the platform i guess, haha.
well, actually, i dun even think i used to be a wildchild, i just got abit preoccupied with clubbing when i ought to be studying, and kinda started early, started when i was 14 plus, and started smoking when i was 15. and kinda had the wrong mentality tt clubbing wasn't fun until u get high when i was in jc, so i was drinkign quite alot, nv drunk, and getting tt rep as someone who can seriously drink.
well, dun think i can drink tt well now anyway, haven been drinking for the longest time, mayeb just the occasional urge for beer, tt's it. dun take drugs either, dun sleep around, i swear, heh, had tt rumor since 15, hmmm... i haven even been with a guy for more than 6 mths, not even holding hands,except for friends lah in crowded areas or while crossing the road. everything's all clean. i do flirt with my friends, i'm quite the flirt sometimes, i'm a gemini afterall.
as i said before, it's just chilling, mah jiong, movies, dvds,supper, reading(fantasy, haha) and tv tt i do now, nuffin else, ann's turning into a boring girl, yeah, but the funny thing is tt i dun even find it boring, infact i love every single moment of it, i'm nv bored nowadays, spending more quality time with my beloved friends, and surprise surprise, my friends love me more, and i love my friends, none of those tt i wld have doubts over, like i did last time, call me trusting or whatsoever, but i do really love and trust my friends now. feels happy.
i'm done with the clubbing lifestyle, well i mean the occasional urge might pop by, but tt will be for a special occasion like birthdays where i'll show my face, and maybe for like some big name hse/trance dj in town, yeah, tt's it, no more twenty shots in a row, ak47s, proving how much and how fast i can drink. alcohol? doesn't even taste gd, i like fruit punch, yup. infact most of my nights, are spent talking to my closer friends and my sweetest biggest addiction, mah jong, the things tt u learn and find out are even more worthwhile as compared to clubbing. guys? doesn't fly my kite anyway, hmm, issit me, or can women really live without men? well, i guess i just need to masturbate or get a vibrator to make my world perfect, or near.
alot more stable now, then i was before. traditional girl, i dunid a variety of guys to make my world, although i do have the tendancy to get bored of pple, not my gd friends anyway. i wish i had more pple with intriguing minds to talk to, tt's my addiction and my fetish. i love a mind. kinda sexy. to me.
